About 4 weeks ago, I found out big (surprise) news. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, there will be a new kid on our block, in my arms in April!
Now while I have always planned and hoped for a fourth, the reality of that was not on my radar yet. With liv being the firecracker that she is, it took me a long time to even fathom the idea of a fourth. To go through another baby that wanted to be held all the time, barfed up milk constantly, and shied away from being with anyone except for me, I needed time to think about my reasons for wanting a big family of 4.
I kept praying about timing or whether it was 'right' to have 4 kids, especially on days that I felt like I was just getting by. In my prayers and heart it was always, 'Am I ready this month? If not soon then when? Maybe I am happy with just 3.'
Although I was truly surprised, I had a big smile on my face. It took some time to feel like this was real since we had planned all our other kids. God made the choice for us before we could and it's nice to think that it was a decision I might not have made for quite a while longer or ever.
All those concerns went out the window when I saw the two famous blue lines. It's true. It's happening. We're having another baby!